How Hitting Rock Bottom Led Me to Overwhelming Joy

Hello lovely! 

I want to tell you all a story that I have been itching to write for a very long time, but have been holding onto because of fear and ego. I am here to get wildly open and honest with you about how hitting rock bottom turned out to be one of the best things that ever happened to me. I went from coasting through life on auto-pilot to being fully alive and thriving over the span of two very trying years. 

Let's take a little trip back in time to early 2014, before I left the military, before getting a divorce, and before going bankrupt. I was just cruising along in life, with little to no direction in mind for my long term plan. I had a general idea that I wanted to specialize in Explosive Ordnance Disposal - or more commonly known as the "Bomb Squad" - within my trade as a Combat Engineer. I was working hard to study up and get ready for the upcoming courses I needed to be fully qualified. 

While on my courses I was very excited about what I was learning, and yet I had an overwhelming amount of anxiety about the direction my life was heading both career wise and in my personal life. I was having loads of financial issues, my marriage was slowly deteriorating, and I couldn't shake the feeling like I was headed down the wrong path. 

As it turns out the Universe had a whole new life path in mind for me. One that I had never even dreamed was even a possibility. Over the months that followed my courses in New Brunswick, my now former husband and I decided to separate and I moved in with my best friend until I could get on my feet. I began to feel an overwhelming sense of loss, both for my marriage and the life I was starting to leave behind. I spent a few months turning to unhealthy coping mechanisms to get through everything (*ahem* whiskey, wine, and beer), before I had a wake-up call and realized that I needed to get my sh!t together and start living my life. 

In January 2015, after six years of serving my country, I made the difficult decision to leave my career in the military and go back to school. I also knew that in order to make room for change and new things, the things that were no longer serving me had to go. I filed for a bankruptcy that same month and took the first step of many to gaining control of my finances and my future. 

Every single one of those changes was incredibly terrifying and right before I took that leap of faith I felt like I was at an all time low.  I had hit rock bottom and I had hit it hard. I felt an intense amount of sadness, disappointment, fear, failure, and self-loathing. How had I managed to fail at so many things in my life and in such a short period of time. I felt miserable, overwhelmed, and spent much of my time wallowing in self pity and tears. 

The beautiful thing about hitting rock bottom, is that there is literally nowhere to go but up. Now this doesn't mean that all of a sudden all the pain and suffering was gone and I was on to living my dream life. No sirree! Not even close. It does mean however that I was finally on the path that the universe had planned for me. 

Things began to naturally fall into place and the more I embraced them the more the things I was longing for deep down began to manifest in my life. A large part of being able to work through my emotions and begin building my dream life was thanks to my daily yoga practice. I started doing yoga to reduce the amount of stress in my life, and I instantly felt drawn to the idea of becoming a yoga teacher. I became obsessed and spent hours researching and learning about what I needed to do in order to start teaching others how to use yoga to change their lives for the better. 

Since discovering my passion for the Health and Wellness industry my vision of my dream job has changed a number of times, and continues to grow and evolve as I do. I LOVE to teach and I feel incredibly blessed to now be certified as a Yoga Teacher, POP Pilates Instructor, Personal Trainer, and Group Fitness Instructor. My job allows me to meet some of the most fantastic people and to help them become the best version of themselves possible. 

I have worked so hard over the past couple years to embrace the Universe's plans for me and to become the best version of myself possible. I strive each day to be true to my authentic self and to live my life in harmony with my core values and beliefs. I have come a very long way from the place I was just over two years ago. I have replaced fear with tenacity, sorrow with joy, and anxiety with passion and purpose. 

I am sometimes blown away with how much I have accomplished and persevered through in the past few years, especially when I know deep down in my core that I am only getting started. If there is just one piece of advice that I could offer to anyone feeling lost, stuck, and unhappy in their current life, it is to listen to your intuition and take BOLD and BRAVE actions towards creating the life you are longing for. It won't be easy, and that voice of your intuition might be as quiet as a mouse at first, but the more you listen to it, and the more you embrace the plan the Universe has for you, the more abundantly joyful your life will be. 

By starting to live outside my comfort zone a little more each day and being open to change I have created a life that I couldn't have imagined in even my wildest dreams. I have met and fallen head over heels for the love of my life. I adopted two adorable fur babies that I wouldn't have been able to care for if I were still in the military and constantly being sent away from home. I have multiple jobs that fuel my passion for helping others each and everyday, and I am on my way to becoming a Certified Life Coach so that I may continue to help people in a further multitude of ways. I challenge you to dig deep inside of yourself and listen to that tiny little voice of your own intuition and discover a life that fills you with joy. If I can do it then you most certainly can too!

 

Now I want to hear from you!

Drop me a line in the comments below and answer the following two questions for me. 

  • What is your intuition and the Universe drawing you towards?
     

  • What fears or challenges are blocking you from embracing your authentic self and life's purpose?

Until next time, get out there and be brave you beautiful badass. 

With love, 

Lexx <3